Part of being a teenager is this feeling that sex is something exceptional and momentous. Buying condoms is a big deal because it's sex-adjacent. Once you get some experience, you realize that it's not a big deal. It's possible for sex to just be a part of your everyday life: enjoyable and pleasant, sure, but not an earth-shaking occurrence. (At least, not every time.)
I do that sometimes.
Part of being a teenager is this feeling that sex is something exceptional and momentous. Buying condoms is a big deal because it's sex-adjacent. Once you get some experience, you realize that it's not a big deal. It's possible for sex to just be a part of your everyday life: enjoyable and pleasant, sure, but not an earth-shaking occurrence. (At least, not every time.)
God no. Some of the kinkiest people you’ll ever find use condoms without question.
You need to go to the gyno. They will be able to tell you exactly what's going on. It sounds like you need LOTS of foreplay before you begin.