There is a lot of social conditioning that occurs that basically tells women their pleasure doesn't matter, the uterus/vagina/vulva are only for making children, and that a man's sexual pleasure matters more. My guess is you're feeling guilt, because you've (unfortunately) been conditioned to beleive these things. It might not be conscious, but it could be unconscious. You have a couple options: Just keep having oral sex until it seems normal and healthy, and the feeling of guilt goes away Talk to a therapist and work through the feelings Ask your BF to provide reinforcement after that you're lovely and deserve the pleasure (basically aftercare) Try reading on sexual health, and normalize that women are sexual beings and deserve equal sexual satisfaction as men do.
There is a lot of social conditioning that occurs that basically tells women their pleasure doesn't matter, the uterus/vagina/vulva are only for making children, and that a man's sexual pleasure matters more. My guess is you're feeling guilt, because you've (unfortunately) been conditioned to beleive these things. It might not be conscious, but it could be unconscious. You have a couple options: Just keep having oral sex until it seems normal and healthy, and the feeling of guilt goes away Talk to a therapist and work through the feelings Ask your BF to provide reinforcement after that you're lovely and deserve the pleasure (basically aftercare) Try reading on sexual health, and normalize that women are sexual beings and deserve equal sexual satisfaction as men do.