Yeah, that was sexual assault. It doesn’t mean you’re a 100% shitty person and deserve to suffer forever but that was a really shitty thing you did, and it was sexual assault. It’s important to reflect on that, reckon with it, and be way more aware in the future
I couldn't tell based on the rest of your post, but if your partner is a penis welder I suggest looking up something called coiital alignment technique, the CAT position. Essentially, this allows a penis to enter at a sharper angle and stimulate the clit
I’ve heard dating is super hard these days. Good luck! Btw, you have a long life ahead of you. Things may take some time. I am in my 50’s and know people who started like you and ended up being really happy with how things worked out. Also, you don’t need a lot of experiences with different people depending on who you end up with. Some women are enthusiastic and experimental and happy to try a lot of different things. One of those can help you figure out as much as a dozen very reserved women can.
Virginity is nonsense. Hymens break all the time from non- sexual activity.
Yeah, that was sexual assault. It doesn’t mean you’re a 100% shitty person and deserve to suffer forever but that was a really shitty thing you did, and it was sexual assault. It’s important to reflect on that, reckon with it, and be way more aware in the future
Reverse cowgirl
That sounds like a serious codependency issue. Maybe address that and your masturbatory issue will resolve.
I couldn't tell based on the rest of your post, but if your partner is a penis welder I suggest looking up something called coiital alignment technique, the CAT position. Essentially, this allows a penis to enter at a sharper angle and stimulate the clit
I’ve heard dating is super hard these days. Good luck! Btw, you have a long life ahead of you. Things may take some time. I am in my 50’s and know people who started like you and ended up being really happy with how things worked out. Also, you don’t need a lot of experiences with different people depending on who you end up with. Some women are enthusiastic and experimental and happy to try a lot of different things. One of those can help you figure out as much as a dozen very reserved women can.