Did it occur to you that she may have sensory issues or trauma that she is not required to tell you about? Her agreeing to do something sexual is not a blank cheque for you to touch her anywhere, even if you want to. I still don't really understand how Her not wanting you to touch certain parts of her body (as is her right) affected your masculinity/ confidence. Setting a boundary of where someone can/can't touch you is entirely her perogative and has nothing to do with you, and is likely something you will come across again with future partners in some way shape or form.
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One has nothing to do with the other
Thank you for these words!
Did it occur to you that she may have sensory issues or trauma that she is not required to tell you about? Her agreeing to do something sexual is not a blank cheque for you to touch her anywhere, even if you want to. I still don't really understand how Her not wanting you to touch certain parts of her body (as is her right) affected your masculinity/ confidence. Setting a boundary of where someone can/can't touch you is entirely her perogative and has nothing to do with you, and is likely something you will come across again with future partners in some way shape or form.